no need of it

mood: panic + sleepy + irritated + groggy + cranky
music: none other than the sound of the hollow air

Shucks.
1.12am.Yesh.
Im still here.Doing my blardy research paper.
i can feel the adrenaline rush reacting inside of me.
Shyt.I need to sleep.Im freaking blardy tired.
Blame it on me..im not aware of the stupid deadline.
THIS FRIDAY.YAYNESS FOR THE ULTIMATE SLACKER.
i will never,ever,ever do last minute work again.
but hey.im still blogging here anyway =D....
lalalala

Somewhere,at this time,near my area..
some FOREST is on fire.
my nose is suffering now.im groggy but I.CANT.SLEEP due to the irritation of the smoke.
so does those pitifully dry,wilted trees,burning into ashes.
2 possible culprits:
a) the friggin weather.its too hot.people,take good care of yourselves.many of them fell sick.take lotsa lotsa fluids and vitamins =)
b) some immoralist is setting the forest on fire. i can only present them one word : BASTARDS.

IM SUFFOCATING HERE ! DAMN.
and i don't wanna die of lung cancer.
nooooo :(

口不对心

mood: random
music: random

都是一场误会。
都是一时快嘴，话都说不对。

并不是这个意思。
却由情绪放肆地控制。

怎样。
就是这样。

jazz are for nights.

mood: slacking
music: Its Oh So Quiet - Bjork

well,im supposed to study for test.
next week wheyy.
but end up slacking here.
still blur blur but dont feel like studying on weekends.

i always loved jazz,or some might classify them as blues.im also a big big fan of electronica music.
i love Shiina Ringo,since i heard her song "Kuki" when i was 14-15 i think.
and recently,Bjork xD
they are not purely jazz musicians,they have a pretty wide range of talents.
from jazz,rock to electronica :)
aint it awesome ?!
Bjork's kinda bizzare at first,but she has that super mellow and sexy voice.and i started to like her even better now after hearing her version of "Gloomy Sunday".
then i came across to something call Nu-Jazz last year.

whats Nu-jazz?
its some kind of new genre introduced in the late 90s.
it's some electronica jazz with repetitive tunes,imagine hip hop plus jazz.
thats really,really nice.
and its pretty amazing.to find that jazz can actually match hip hop's funky beats.
the fresh vibrant beats mixing with the mellow,slightly darkish and chilling notes.
so far i have only listened to korea and japan's nu-jazz artists.
but this genre's kinda hard to find. =/

I.NEED.MORE.JAZZ.

and oh something random.
my life cycling in a stagnant flow.
life repeats the same routine for me to do after one week by another.
well,thats how it is.

that's how life,sometimes,is.

-xin-

plastic surgeries

mood: relaxed
music: Shiina Ringo's awesome tracks,again.

plastic surgeries.
there are 2 types of plastic surgeries:
1) the reconstructive plastic surgery.it is meant for reconstructing burned/damaged/deformed body parts or the face.
2) the cosmetic surgery.mainly to enhance body parts and face,or to restore youth and acheive ideal figure.

cosmetic surgeries are kinda common nowadays.i've seen people posting their pictures before and after they went for operation.some did minor changes like opting for a nose job.nose job and boob job is kinda popular,well,based on my findings.
and some...they literally changed to another person,i mean,appearance-wise.

so,is it okay to go for plastic surgeries?

personally,i dont feel there's anything wrong with it xD.why not if you want it?
some people might feel insecured and loses confidence due to their appearance.
as harsh as reality is,looks sometimes really does matters.appearances more or less give out impressions to other people.
if its untrue,why some people put extra hard to lose weight and endure the temptation of delicacies just to put on the gorgoeus outfit?
why some people spend a large sum of money on cosmetics and products?
they will look good,and they will feel good.
when they feel good,they are confident.
when they are confident,they are more likely to be more positive and happy.

its vital to have confidence,which i personally don't really have xD.
and,cosmetic surgeries are just another way to boost this confidence.
people spend money on cosmetic products,why not surgeries?
u see,its quite controversial.
some might say that its fake,its not what you originally looked like.
inner beauty,most of the time,weighs more than appearance.yes that's very true i agree.appearances are not immortal.it will die off with the flow of time.
but if it can make one feel better NOW,why not?

but do keep this in mind : be aware of the side effects.

if someone asks me whether i will go for cosmetic surgeries,my answers is..probably no.because im okay with what i look like now.and im afraid of pain =x
but if anyone else wants to go for surgeries,i will be supporting them. =D

look matters,but at the same time,don't neglect what's inside.

-xin-

weeeeeeee

mood: syiok ~

music: Shiina Ringo's tracks. awesome singer.

=D firstly..

my god son,Melvin xD ~ cute lil pup..

kai ma wish you cepat cepat grow besar ~

love you~

ah lui,better take care of yourself =)...

stay happy always..thanks for making me Melvin's god mother xD..

take care of yourself..well..at least i know he will take good care of you =)

god bless you guys ~

random....

pics pics pics ~

Rosy.Han..my ji muis xD

Snoopy in library xD


hotlinks mascot xD

staaaaaarbucks on fridays.

yes.the CARBS.

rosy.han.xin.

lols.spotted me?

Last but not least...happy birthday ah ki =)

24th July 2008 was her 18th birthday.

dai gor lui lor wheyy :)

Hope u stay happy always..study hard..play hard..love ya loads girl =)

didnt did much on your birthday this year..hope u like the karaoke session xD

take care dear =D

things that i need/wanted/hope i can make my self determine/will most likely to forget but important to do:

1) stop pumping carbs into my body.see how much fats i've gained.

2) go back to exercise.

3) work extra hard on my math A and B.

4) work hard on my studies.

5) decide to cut my hair or endure the Willy-Wonka-hairstyle until it's longer.

oh by the way...i have a hotlink number edy :)

tadaaas people ~

-xin-

i know its crazy

mood:ohmygahh
music: none at the moment

i said.
he rejected.

end of the story xD

i didnt give up.until i find reasons.
but i wont do anything,anymore.

happy friday

mood:dumb
music:Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

had maths B today.
as usual,i got stuck...haih..my brain power...
gotta do lotsa practise..

got off from college around 1.30pm..
as usual, me and rosy went to mei yee jie jie's stall again =D..
then we decided to go to pyramid's starbucks..
we have been going there on fridays..guess fridays are for starbucks xD
rosy's workin on her undang test xD..

and she's so pissed off and frus..and cuz i keep yakking on the phone and being annoying so that she loses concentration..she gave me that LOOK and wanted to hang me on the lagoon themepark's railway xD..just look at her priceless expression:

Lols..u will pass undang.dont worry.

and my lunch,ice-blended green tea+whipped cream =) no. i didnt eat my button-eyed-rabbit.

i told her off.i hope she understands.
this will be the last FIGHT in my HOUSE.
kay? merajuk pun ada limit-nya...kan?
don't start fighting with him at my house anymore.
if u needed advices and need someone's shoulder to lean on,im always ready.
but throwing my things when you get mad,is too much.

she misses him.
she feels like telling him stupid things.
HOW CAN.

-xin-

ramblings

mood:reluctant

music:Ghibli Set-Daishi Dance [joe hisaishi's work transformed into electronica xD]



working on my research paper and curi curi blog~
my topic is about education : is tertiary education important?
XD no idea why i choose this.
im only reading through some parts and i'll have to pass up the biblography list by tommorow~
kinda confused here. what's journals ? i know the general journal in accounting xD..
general journal = some general transactions to be recorded
article journal = summary of the article?
i don't know xD

anyways..
Today, i watched :

Batman : The Dark Knight

Nice.What can i say,Christian Bale is totally hot. Those eyes ~
Yeah and one thing, im really really amused by the acting skills of the late Heath Ledger. The Joker is a scary mastermind,and he potraits him very well. Respects !
GO WATCH THE MOVIE PEOPLE =)

i need to feed myself with more movies.
hellboy,journey-some-name-i forgotten-in-3d,and i haven't watch hancock ! so sad..
might go alone to watch hancock.since everyone watched it.
well =) gotta complete my biblography..

tadass people.

-xin-

we will meet again

Mutiple posts again..=D


13.07.08, Sunday.
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Went to my second home (bukit tinggi aeon) again. But its different this time. I met up with kei and elaine..kei's going back to Hong Kong because she didn't get to enter form6 because she's not a Malaysian. It was just too sudden...i remember i called her a month ago..she's still waiting for the govt's reply.Andden the next day i chatted her in msn,she was like: im back in Hong Kong edy..im going to study there.
I was like WHAT?! 0_0...

So,3 of us when JJ to meet up after she came back to malaysia for a short while.
They say : A picture paints a thousand words.
so..=)

Well,im always ready for Sakae Sushi.Took alot of pics and laughed our lungs out like soh pohs

Somehow,we ended up at Greenbox. Er..this is inside the toilet i think xD

Room 33 for 3 of us =D...

Just look at her expression xD...memang poser..

We were really really really really really really REALY...crazy =_=..jumping,shouting,bouncing,dancing and screaming.Lol..but its kinda fun..=D

Elaine flashing her fancy phone while drinking xD

Took this before we leave. We miss you,kei kei..

She boarded the plane today.I wished we have more time together..well..bought her a pair of cute indoor slippers and a monkey pillow..i forgot to snap it..but oh well..kei..take care..do contact us when you come msia again..all the best..we miss you...love ya =)

14.07.08,Monday
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Yeah.Monday blues.
Couldn't sleep well last night.Dunno what's wrong with me.
Marathon classes are not so bad edy,cuz i got used to it edy.
Attended this talk about Monash.
Basically,the talk is about some info regarding Monash and the subjects available for Business Studies.Bla bla bla,bla bla bla..quite useful because i started to stress about choosing which majors.I have a few in mind,but i just couldn't make up my mind.
Class ended around 3pm,went mei yee jie jie's stall with rosy,han and yuen yee.
talk talk talk,laugh laugh laugh..
went for moral studies around 4pm.felt tired edy.
did my homework there. =_=..sorry to the lecturer..class ended on 5.30pm..
meet up with bro and we went home together.Suprisingly,the ktm is not as packed as what i've imagined. =)
have to do my school work now..then i'll die on my bed earlier than usual today..byebye..

-xin-

random crap

mood: duh
music: Joe Hisaishi's works.

math.....
math?
math !
math~
math.
math,math,ma--

ok sorry.
im worried about my math.
i know,practise makes perfect.
but can i do it?
hope so..

i am always like that.
quiet,freakish and not sociable.
im sorry if i scared those people away..
it's about the looks i gave,is it?
i don't mean it.
people thought i was attacked by depression.
and some of them say i acted cooly..and tries to shy away from crowds.
again,im sorry.
i just don't know how to talk and what to say.
i will try to work on it.

friend,
is either you put an end to it or you are willing to accomodate each other.
there's no relationship that can survive with one party solely compromising the other.
debating on which side's fault won't bring you any futhur.
it's hard to get over something you had treasured it so dearly.
but life still have to move on,right?
be sad,cry it out loud and complain to me...i will be there for you.
but then,don't forget to smile again =)

@@

mood: okay
music: Kanye West ft T-Pain - Good Life

1st day of sem 2 =D
went to campus to register subjects..
its was like battlefield there =_=
everyone's like rushing here and there,squeezing here and there..
a bit frustrated i am xD cuz the slots that we wanted were full..
lol..and FINALLY we managed to come up with our own time table..
good news is: im going back on 1.30pm every friday =D and except mondays and thursdays,i can go home on 2.45pm,like in sem 1.
bad news: mon-wed no break time..and i'll have to stay till 5.30pm every monday and thursday.whoopeedoopee,ktm rides during super peak hours.
well,this explains why there's opportunity cost..
oh well xD doesnt really matters thou.

went to pyramid for movie with sherman and rosy..
watched Wanted.
er its pretty bloody,with all the shooting and stabbing and punching and bloody scenes xD
i would like it better if they don't censor all those foul words.
no.i don't have fetishes for foul words.but its a bit weird to censor it..in my opinion.
but overall its nice =) kinda gan-jiong.

work hard i shall !

-xin-

back in action

mood:moodless
music:my lovely boys dongbangshinki =)

FINALLY.
i managed to finish P.S. I Love You.
nice ending.it deeply moved my heart..
imagine if something like that happened to me (choi)..i don't think i can be so brave like her.
one break up can make me sad for almost a month..and still counting on...=_=

whoopeedoopee.
sem 2 starts tommorow.
everything is fine for me except the friggin public transport part.
cramping,squeezing,squashing,waiting..
urgh.
okay.i know i shouldn't whine like a kid.
because i should have get used to this daily routine of mine.
but sometimes really damn sian lor.
oh well xD

listening to some of dongbangshinki's old tracks..
i like them better when they sing korean songs..my personal preference =)
junsu ~ your voice never fails to bring smiles to my face..
these old tracks reminds me of the times i spent with my secondary school friends..
especially my best friends..
i seriously miss them =(..miss those times when we are together..
everyone's heading different ways,targeting different goals,socializing with the different type of groups and leading a different kind of lifestyle.

i miss us =)..how r u guys doing?

-xin-

argh

mood:crappy
music:random music


to elaine : dont be sad..
HAIH.HEART MATTERS.


i cant finish P.S. I Love You because its somewhat painful for me to read it.
no doubt it is nice..but it reminds me about loads of crappy stuff.
geez.


went to kuon's house today..really enjoyed the time spent with her =)
we talked alot...
about life,love,studies,family,friends... (girls can really talk)
haha~

Anyways...heard this song by Keane..the song's name is A Bad Dream
nice song =)

Why do I have to fly
over every town up and down the line?
I'll die in the clouds above
and you that I defend, I do not love.

I wake up,
it's a bad dream,
no one on my side.
I was fighting,
but I just feel too tired
to be fighting.
Guess I'm not the fighting kind.

Where will I
meet my fate?
Baby I'm a man,
and I was born to hate.
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time
you could be my friend.

I wake up,
it's a bad dream,
no one on my side
I was fighting,
but I just feel too tired
to be fighting.
Guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side,
but you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.

Where do we go?
I don't even know
my strange old face.
And I'm thinking about those days.
And I'm thinking about those days.

I wake up,
it's a bad dream,
no one on my side.
I was fighting,
but I just feel too tired
to be fighting.
Guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side,
but you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.

ah how nice ~

happy birthday ama =)

mood: refreshed
music: Jupiter One-Unglued (wooa woa woa)

went out with mum and bro this afternoon..
got some business to be done with the bank...
had chicken rice (lol why am i mentioning such a random thing)..
then phone kuon whether she's at home anot by tml..i wanna pass the dbsk cd to her x)..
she say she's in JJ celebrating ah ma's birthday in advance xD NOW
i was like..rushing my way to JJ's Greenbox ~ NOW =_=

saw some frens..really never meet them for such a long time ~
happy =) happy birthday in advance ah ma =)
managed to sing a few songs..
wow i never knew singing can make a person feels refreshed and happy =D
didnt take alot of pics..oh well xD
then roam around JJ with kuon xD the rest of them went for dinner..

pretty nice day i've had..
2 more days left and sem2 will come..
feelin the heat !

-xin-

there she goes,complain all along~

mood: lost
music: some long forgotten anime music + coldplay.


im wishing for my sem2 to come a.s.a.p.
i mean.yeah.its holidays.
this is the time when i can forget about test,school work and my awful grades.
this is the time when i can immerse myself into my so-called IDEAL type of lifestyle which is actually quite standardized: sleep,eat,play,tidur,makan,main,睡，吃，玩。xD
but..
i felt kinda..lost rite now.
its like dumping me into somewhere isolated,somewhere deserted.
emo attacks me this week =(...feeling all moody and sometimes cranky =_=..shyt.
im controlling my messed-up mood..


yes.im annoying nowadays.
because i kept mentioning about him.gosh..in almost every goddamn post.
the fact that it didnt worked out,the fact that i lost him almost a month ago,the fact that we are not going to be like what we used to be kept haunting me.
why am i so not over it? i never felt like this before.im no newcomer to relationships.
i start to think, i even sat at a corner to rearrange my thoughts..
i think..its because i got too involved into this relationship. =/
i was truly,madly,deeply (lol.does the band name savage garden rings the bell?) in love.
when everything was supposed to be over,i couldnt boldly mark an end to it.
i felt like a kid,a really naive one,still waiting for his phone calls,his text messages.
i hoped that he will still shelter me with all the love and care,like he once did.
i miss everything of him.
of course,i dont stalk.i do talk to him tru msn sometimes,altot we dont talk much.
im trying hard to keep my cool,trying not to mention him in front of people..
oh but im not breaking down secretly xD.im okay.just a bit frustrated sometimes.
just because i have nothing to do,those vivid images and memories of him came swarming into my mind.


im not over it.
im still trying to slap reality onto my face.
so sem 2,please please come.
i need things to get me busy.
i need to worry about other things.
i need to get used to my new life,a life without him.


they say the best remedy to forget a person is to find another person to love.
well,then my new lover would be my studies.me and my crappy grades =_=.
promise myself that this would be the last sentimental post about him.hopefully..

im so into P.S. I Love You ~ i freaking love this blardy novel.

-xin-

free=lonely?

mood: jazzzzzzy
music: jazz baby,jazz

ahahaha xD
my dad..i caught him humming the tune of "Bubbly" by Colbie Caillat..
and i was like 0_0 dad ? i tot u were from the "jimmy jimmy please don't cry,u'll forget me by and by" era xD? (btw the singers are Conway Twitty and Joni Lee..er..if u happen to know them..they are country folk singers..oldies r not bad)
haha...dad...

im currently reading P.S. I Love You.
cuz i was curious.it was the best selling fiction,listed by TheStar newspaper.
it was recommended by a lot of people on blogs,articles bla bla bla..
so i decided to give it a try. =)
i just finish a couple of chapters..
one word: fantastic .
cannot make any futhur comments as i haven't finish it..

aih..actually i got alot of things to write..
but i dono why im not writing..
oh well =)
saw him online again,but never say hi..
im afraid that i will go deeper.


-xin-