不行啦！！

心情：就快不行啦！
音乐：Electronica and some folk song.

不行啦！
我不可以再这样执迷不悟的。。。
应该说，
我不可以再发白日梦。
人家老早就已经潇洒地过回他原本的生活。。
或许比以前更好，
或许有了好对象，
快乐伤心，都跟我毫无关系了。。不对吗？

受不了啦！！
吃饱饭没事做，就想他吃饱了没。
忙碌的时候，就会想一下他忙得累不累。
雨天更糟。满脑子都装他的事。
哇咧，我很得空hor?
不过也不是时常这样啦，偶尔才会这样的。
但是，还是很不好受leh。。=_=

为什么还要给自己这样无畏的希望？
为什么还要期待？
为什么啥事都把他牵连进来？
为什么总觉得别人都没有他好？
明明很清楚，这些全都只有自己一个人在感受着。。=.=
明明很清楚，时光是不可能倒流的。。

那为什么还当他像神一样地拿来拜 0.0
Why why tell me why ~

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aiya.chill.
actually im not emo..im not disheartened..
i don't plan to do anything more and i knew the full stop really meant a full stop.
no more dragging mud taking water (direct translation of a chinese idiom)
just sometimes, i give myself false hopes..
i blame myself that the relationship blew off
i get all sentimental because i thought of him
and
i don't like me to being a dingbat =_=
worse still, im the lone ranger,the dumbo whom held these one-sided emotions.
wtfish right ?!

honestly, i think it's a poison in me already.
it's kinda hard to cure..
so : don't care lah.sentimental then sentimental lor.whatever la.stupid then stupid la.
as long as i gauranteed my common senses is not malfunctioning..and i won't do anything reckless.
im COOL okay ? *cough cough*

:D but imma livin my life.so far so good.just this particular part of me and my half-ass-studies sucks =_=

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lastly :D
went pyramid with elaine last sunday.
had a really good time with her.lazy to upload photos/brag about it.
girl friends rocks =)
tommorow go college again...to start and finish up the english group oral presentation..
so must say HI to my dear ktm lor. yaaaaaay.

byebye lar people. li xin is damn lame right now.
she looked lame.
she felt lame.
she sounds lame.

then she thought of lamb.
baaaaaa

si beh lame/lamb.

-xin

Happy 18th Birthday

mood: chillin
music: Hiroki Mizukami - [album] Keep Alive

Finally..she is 18 edy xD

happy birthday babe =)

this pic is kinda old..because i didn't snap her recent pics..due to her new green camera..which we all love xD..

and one thing. it's damn hard to get through your phone whey..the sms i sent is like..
taking 100 years to reach you 0_0..
Anyhow.happy birthday =)..smile always..like you'd always do.

HAPPY TREE FRIENDS ROCKS xD

-xin

tagggeeedd by ki n pekjin

mood: ok
music: none at the moment.

1. What is the relationship of you and her/him ?
her: besties :)
him: former classmate/friends.

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
her: a singer, a good girl, understanding, speak her mind, have her own opinions.
him: a clean guy xD, sweet towards girls, helpful, sincere and honest.

3. The most memorable things /he has done for you.
her: too many..
him: give advices to me ? :)

4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you?
her: again, too many.
him: ...er. something to do with the advices he gave.

5. If she/he becomes your lover, you will...
her: be the man and treat her right
him: be blessed. cuz he's a sweet one :)

6. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will...
her: definately try to make up. even by force :D
him: ask why and try to make things right.

7. If she/he becomes your lover, she/he has to improve on...
her: the ability to improve/influence me :D
him: no.i should be the one to improve. look at my skin colour :(

8. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is...
her: i did something really bad
him: the same? lol

9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
her: naw. i don't have weird fantasies. but i do hope the friendship between us is always strong.
him: i said i don't fantasize. but i did like to know how he conditions his complexion :D

10. The overall impression of her/him is...
her: a girl worth spending time with.
him: he'd make a good boyfriend. so girls out there... :)

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
emo ? duh =.=..or should i say im a little bit of everything...

12. The character of you for yourself is?
listener, and i like the part that i love music.don't ask me why :p

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
half-baked :( and frequent mood-swings.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
er...i can't think of a person. but i wanna succeed in life.

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
thanks for liking/caring a half-baked person like me :)

16. 10 frens to tag
rosy
jern han ( i doubt he'll even know about this)
kuon
bee hui
zm
jinyen
ah ma
darryl
wing yip
ah keong

17. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
aiya. ask him lor..cuz im not sure about the situation edy.

18 Is no. 3 a male or a female?
100% female and feminine :)

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
why not?

20. How about no. 5 and no. 8?
they don't even know each other.

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
the same course,same subjects on the desk beside me :)

22. Is no. 4 single?
sorry guys.nope

23. say something about no.6
uber cute and good at dancing.

yay? lol. see this and do the tag. :) buh bye people...i got math A test on the day after tomorrow !
bless me kao kao can? :)
lotsa love to the world. muahhhh


-xin

megane no hito

mood: math-mode

music: One Step at a Time - Jordin Sparks



minna-san..ogenki desu ka..?
konya wa..samui desu ne? :)



okok..english english.
something super random :) which i wanna share:

bwahahaha.

finally.go get my specs done. the frame is like overwhelming my tiny lil eyes. sighs.
and the case of my specs..is coated with bright pink and white polka dots. omgwtf.
well whatever :)
so i won't kena from lecturer anymore. am i supposed to say yay here =/ ?
my eye-sight is pretty okay. i just can't see the whiteboard properly.

ok.done :) ciao. im so gonna try loving math.

-xin

freedom comes when you learn to let go

mood: like im filled with various colours of jellybeans in a jar? lol
music: Prayers - Clazziquai


First of all, ignore my last post :) don't know what got into me.
never had i swore that much throughout my freaking 18 years..
and......IT WAS FUN :)

you could say that there is no answer
when the people keep on asking for deliverance
don't be a slave in your sanctuary
freedom comes when you learn to let go

er.something random.
an extract from the song Prayers.
i just love this song so much.
because horan says: freedom comes when you learn to let go
shibuya-kei owns :)

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went to college today to attend a talk about women rights/children rights/refugee rights/displaced people's right.
and i did something nasty. i RAN off during the talk.
sorry :(
say no to domestic violence/child abuse/discrimination :)

learnt a new word (?) from my accounts lecturer on friday.
the word is SUMO
no.not that sumo....
it means "shut up and move on"

thought of the day:
it's okay to think highly of yourselves.
just don't put other people into the picture, and then compare your mightiness with your so-called the weaker ones, and disses them.
that's just not pretty. okay ? :)
people can't do the things you can do, but they can do what you can't do.
say no to discrimination xD

thats all.lazy to blah the rest out.
toodless :)

-xin

circles

mood: =D ?
music: none at the moment

yes.althought hectic weeks are gone..
there is more to come.
finally,i can really sit down and focus things one by one.
focus baby, focus.

sheesh.
politics -- the current hot topic among my family members and relatives.
many incidents had happened for the past few days..in fact, political issues spread like wild fire among citizens and it is strongly debatable as it faces many bombardments and critisisms.
Despite of the hot-boiling scenarios we are currently facing with, it is relatively important for many commoners, yes commoners..us commoners to upkeep the spirit of togetherness, the semangat of PERPADUAN
Dont make hasty generalisations. Don't treat all apples are bad in the basket because you spotted a rotten apple in it.
Peace people. Even if its a hipocrisy, it is a necessity. get what i mean?
we wouldn't want any crisis to fall on us. RIGHT?
lips sealed =)

dinner time..byebye

-xin




and one thing---heels kills.
my foot.ugh.

no more..

mood: recovered
music: Daishi Dance - P.I.A.N.O

dont wanna be emo anymore.
later die in an early age xD

what's there to complain when i know i didn't gave my best shot?

stay strong,stay strong.
time to change to another plan.

just wait and see.
i..can do it..? hopefully.

-xin

accumulating emo-ness.

mood: obviously that kind of mood.
music: obviously that kind of music.

so tired
but can't sleep

family problems
broken heart still in repair
accumulating stress
insecurities

pray that i can make it through.

short update

mood: was okay.
music: Beat in Love - Clazziquai.

damn addicted to this song.
i just dont know why ~

nothing interesting to say,nothing interesting to rant about..
experienced something scary/freaky..don't wanna talk about it tho..
so.
a quick review on my schedule througout the early september:

sunday 07/09/08
going to the Handicaps center for moral assignment.might be bringing some biscuits/sweets i think.

monday 08/09/08
Econs assignment test 1.blah.

tuesday 09/09/08
Math B topic test 2.scary..

friday 12/09/08
Research paper submittion date.and im getting nowhere now...

monday 15/09/08
Accounting B topic test 2.
English oral presentation.i am the first one to present.

blesss mehhhh baby !!! =DDDD

-xin