haih

mood: h-a-i-h
music: none at the moment

recently,i find it hard to cope with my studies..im filled with doubts and insecurities..
i AM bad at math to begin with..trying hard to understand all the terms,laws,graphs...ugh.
and to get rid of my attitude of resenting math,which i keep failing to do so for the past x years.
so.
i shall bare with the teeth-gritting subject througout the whole semester..
and my accounts is getting out of touch with the current syllables =_=.i understand the theories and all but i didnt do any practises. so...its like hanging halfway.
and and and my economics..duh..it's still okay i think...0_0..
and my english =_=during the past few weeks,i must be dreaming...gosh...research paper,2 oral presentations,short-stories+novel..the schedule is like damn hectic wheyy...and im like...the first one to do oral presentations? ...not funny lor.

instead of crapping and complaining here,i should be off to work..
but i do enjoy a bit of whining sometimes :)
ciao.wish me luck.i need to survive and proceed..

-xin-

sometimes.

mood: calm
music: Ishiki - Shiina Ringo


sometimes.
there are things that i find it difficult to express
its hard to put in words.

a daily dosage of music,is what i needed.
:)
spread the love for music.

movies baby,movies.

mood: happy =3
music: Prayers - Clazziquai [horan:freedom comes when you learn to let go]

went Bukit Raja's JJ for movie with ma babes today =D
ki and sio wei..its my 1st time to watch movie with sio wei..
we watch :

You Don't Mess With The Zohan

Frankly.The movie is about banging,banging and more banging.If you know what im trying to say xD.
alot of scenes were missing..0_0..well it was rated "U"..when it wasn't supposed to =p..
pretty funny thought.pretty controversial too :) ...
i'd root for "Meet Dave".But the airing time is like..6.45pm..=_=..i haven't watch it..T-T
But yea..it was okay,the Zohan.. =D.

Bought stuff..didnt buy clothes kay xD ! went to a few shops to pick up mum's clothes instead o.0...I bought some BOOKS leh..

SM entertainment : Exclusive interview =3
and its obvious why i bought it. Because it features Dong Bang Shin Ki.
ki and my fav BUBBLEGUM BOYBAND =)
i don't like boybands.But im super bias when it comes to DBSK.
so..i heart them =3
actually ah ki spotted it first.
and i bought it..
we'll share and read !! Spread the LOVE ~

21 : Bringing Down the House
I guess most of the people knew about this..
its was made into a movie..
but i've been eyeing on this book since ages ago =_=..
and i decided to buy it today.
Happy reading xD

Haha xD my look-alike~ Teh Bunny
a present from ah ki =3..
thanks..i love my bunny. i love stuff like these.
and i dont know why..everyone seems to say stuff like these resembles me =_=..
wahaha..anyways thanks =)

Great day i've had <3..>

-xin-

anime mania

mood: relaxed
music: Tokyo Jihen - Botomin

i was supposed to blog about my Bird day xD..
but yea.as usual..laziness attacks.
leave it till tml..or the day after tml..hahas..
and partially,i need pics from my dad's camera..the camera is with him now...
so..conclusion = leave it til later ! =D



but i seriously,enjoyed those celebrations..thanks people =)



yea and as expected,not even a WORD from someone.
even thou i do admit that there's still a dim light of hope exists within me..
oh well.forget it.
cuz horan says: freedom comes when u learn to let go.



been watching:
Natsume no Yuujinchou
Kyouran Kazoku Nikki
Itazura na Kiss
Shugo Chara!
Special A
SOUL EATER !!! 8D
Mahou Tsukai ni Taisetsu no Koto ~Natsu no Sora~
Nogizaka Haruka no Himitsu
Sekirei
Gintama



thanks to the invention of torrent,thanks to the fansubs =)
RESPECTS =DD
so..yeap.most of them were shoujo-genre..
and i dono why im hooked to Special A and its not very special..
anyways =D
something to share:

My all time favourite anime: Gintama =D
my first impression was like:what the hell is this? the era of samurai being conquered by species from the other planets?
but i tell you, i CAN'T stop laughing over it since i started watching gintama.
I wonder why not many of the Malaysians watch Gintama cuz its like freaking funny.seriously funny.Hideaki Sora-san is a pure genius.
and oh yea i forget.disgusting jokes are not everyone's cup of tea....
i dono about other people,but it sure gave me a good laugh =D...
its not all pure comedy thou =)..some of the parts of Gintama can very touching..

and soul eater.
you knew what you will get from most of the shounen-genres rite =)
butt-kicking,the value of friendship,saving the world,grew up from some wimp into a powerful-ass-kicking guy..etc etc etc
its pretty popular.but it is slightly different from the typical shounen anime.
cuz i feed for storyline.not for popularity. (fingers crossed..lelele)
and i liked it :D..Packed with full of action and adventures,blended with a sense of humour,potraited in a funky yet unique style...so.....
yea.its nice =) go try it people =D

Natsume no Yuujinchou talks about a guy named Natsume,whom can see through spirits and demonic-figures (?). Somehow,ghostly figures(again..i dono how to describe spiritual figures) chase after him to take back their names from the "Book of Friends" which was passed down to Natsume by his grandmother,Reiko. Natsume decided to give back the names to those spirits. A mysterious cat(not exactly a cat),which Natsume call him Nyanko-sensei wants to get hold of the book.By making a pact with Natsume,nyanko-sensei promised to be his bodyguard and if Natsume died on the process,nyanko-sensei will have that book. And..
geez.my description is just full of crap =_=
go watch the anime instead.very relaxing..very touching..very Summerish =D


tired =_=.
to be continued...

-xin-

random-ness

mood: as u can see,my mood is always bla/duh/blank. =)
music: none at the moment.

为什么~
明明知道这样已定为局了，
为什么还有那一点点的期待？

咳。
当我没说过 =_=

明天得滚去KL。。。
很少说在巴生以外的地方庆祝。
是麻烦一点啦，得滚到这样远哦。
不过，应该会满好玩的啦。






看来，是有距离的。
所以，得保持距离。

-xin-

cuz i dont want to

mood: chill
music: the cat house - night love (broadcasting ver.)

first and foremost,
JAZZ LIVES !
haha yea its random i know.

someone asked me this question today:
why not find another guy so that you can completely let go him?
er..yea. i said before,the best remedy to forget the previous relationship,is to embrace a new relationship.
embrace sounds...... >.< owh whatever.
anyways..
i dont feel like finding another one.
after him,i think i lost the interest ? not that i stop believing that there will be a better guy out there. or maybe i still have a thiny-wheeny bit of feelings for him..i duno.
the reason why i love:
i love someone not because i needed to love or to feel loved.
i love someone,simply because i love that person xD.
dont tell me,a life without romance is not a life?
=/...
well,nuff said xD

holidays =DDD
the fun part of holidays, is to kiss ktm's arse goodbye for one week.
and no more annoying-5.50am-noisy-alarm calls for one week.
see. =)
but after the break..i shall face the music..T-T..
well well..do what i can for now ~

-xin-

blabla

mood: duh
music: Yellow Moon - Akeboshi

firstly,
yah. its supposed to be an emo post.
but there's a always a saying : you reap what you sow.
therefore,in short, all i can say is i dont put in enough effort.
wait and see, thats not the end of me.

secondly xD
i slept till 11 something today~lolness..
and i went to bed around 9 something last night =_=...wah-ness..imagine how many hours i've slept.
and all i feel now is dizziness....
cuz i sleep too much :(
23.08.08, there will (still?) be a gathering for 5A3 students xD
i've decided to not attend that gathering.
cuz..im lazy~

headache =_=..
signin offfff

-xin-

itazura na kiss =3

mood: "izzit friday yet !?!?!?!"
music: You - Kazami Acoustic ver. [suteki no utau desu]

gonna make this short cuz my bro wanna use laptop dy.
i am currently watching this anime Itazura Na Kiss.
its about a girl having this unrequited love towards a guy whom she falls deeply in love with.
she's clumpsy and basically have no talents in everything..
but one characteristic of her triumphed the rest : DETERMINATION.

how much courage and patience do u think a girl needs in order to continue her feelings for a guy that doesnt like her one bit?
sometimes i think she's really one hard-headed person.why try so hard?
that guy gave her a cold shoulder whenever she approaches him..
even when she puts in extra efforts, that guy just shove it off like it doesn't matters him one bit.
however...
she doesn't give up =)
although there are times when she feels that its plain meaningless to have hopes..
although there are times when she wanted to give up..
she managed to hold onto it.

so..they ended up being husband and wife ~
i wonder..do such person exists in real life?
it may sounds unrealistic.
because there are times when we often held high hopes,
disappointment hits us like tidal waves.
but if we don't even put in any effort to try,
then there will be NO hope.

its not just about relationships,
like what gin-san of "Gintama" said:
"Everyday is a Test of Courage for men. If it weren't like that, we'd all just rot away"

xD

-xin-

keep holding on

chan li xin,

get a grip ! you know you can do better !

just endure it and get through it !

nothing is obstructing your way !

priorites come first, set aside your needless emotions !

you can do better than what you are now.

GOODLUCK TO MYSELF !

when i think of you

mood: nostalgia
music: Winter Memory - House Rulez

Before i post this..i think im the only few ones whom misses my secondary school so badly :(
yes.and i dont know why.

Winter Memory..whenever i heard this song..i'll be reminiscing the past..
it drags me back to 2007...
especially the end of 2007 =D
yea i know Malaysia don't have winter.
but yea..the song is nostalgic.
many wonderful things happened...08 was so different from 07...
i miss 07..i miss my friends..i miss my form 5 life...
i miss the laughter we used to share..i miss those moments when we lay on each other's shoulder,comforting each other..i miss those crazy lame jokes and freaky moves we used to make in class..we used to be so boisterious..so full of emotion..so free spirited..
i really miss us.
and to the rest of the 4/5A3..i really do miss us.
thanks for the memories =)

这是一张充满烂烂的华文得文章。

你。
我时我真的还会，偷偷地想起你。
只是少了那份强烈的痛楚。
不是在寂寞的时候，我会想起你。
而是想起你的时候，我才会寂寞。
你。还好吗？
快乐吗？
还有。这次我不会再say sorry.
instead,谢谢你。
要笑噢！不要一直耍酷啦。

还有你。
谢谢你=)
希望以前的我们，也会像是现在的我们。
是有了裂痕，是有了隔膜，
但你，是不能被取代的。
不用特别地做什么。因为我对我们有信心=)
不理我，我就会用以前的“猫爪”来抓你。=P

还有你。
xD很感激你。陪我度过黑暗的时刻。
也别忘了，我也可以和你一样，陪你走。
可能会差了一点，所以不要嫌啦。

最后，谢谢你们啊。

-欣-
P/S. don't mind my crappy chinese !

confessions

mood: guilty
music: tohoshinki - 君を好きになってしまったんだろう？ [addicted man]

im currently under recession like what rosy had described me xD
got lectured by ms.prathiba today for not doing her work.
yes.im being lazy these days..
and im being tempted by PSP..i don't even know what im doing over the weekends..wasting my precious time for studies.
SHIT.
seriously i have to get a grip of my studies..
i've made her dissapointed...
sorry..
i will never do this again.

tomorrow's math B assesment.
I CAN, AND MUST DO IT ! :D

-xin

im not

mood: assorted feelings.
music : nu-jazz

im chomping down the Magnum ice cream as i type this.
alone at home.
mum went for qi gong,brother went for dinner with friends,dad's not home yet.

its been a hectic week for me..
with all the pilling homeworks,which i haven't finish it up..
and i only managed to sleep for a total of 6-7 hours during the last two days..
came home from school after loitering around at Pyramid with my heng dais xD
then dropped dead on the bed after taking a shower.
so.damn.tired.

when i woke up,everyone's gone.lolness..
ate salmon and some brown rice.
lol what a random thing from me xD

starin at the mirror,
i noticed those big big pimples growing on my cheeks.
i noticed my hair is in a mess.
i noticed how much weight i've gained for the past few months.
walaoeh.
serious shyt.

nex week is the assesments week.
math A B a.

ciaoz.

-xin-