不行啦！！

心情：就快不行啦！
音乐：Electronica and some folk song.

不行啦！
我不可以再这样执迷不悟的。。。
应该说，
我不可以再发白日梦。
人家老早就已经潇洒地过回他原本的生活。。
或许比以前更好，
或许有了好对象，
快乐伤心，都跟我毫无关系了。。不对吗？

受不了啦！！
吃饱饭没事做，就想他吃饱了没。
忙碌的时候，就会想一下他忙得累不累。
雨天更糟。满脑子都装他的事。
哇咧，我很得空hor?
不过也不是时常这样啦，偶尔才会这样的。
但是，还是很不好受leh。。=_=

为什么还要给自己这样无畏的希望？
为什么还要期待？
为什么啥事都把他牵连进来？
为什么总觉得别人都没有他好？
明明很清楚，这些全都只有自己一个人在感受着。。=.=
明明很清楚，时光是不可能倒流的。。

那为什么还当他像神一样地拿来拜 0.0
Why why tell me why ~

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aiya.chill.
actually im not emo..im not disheartened..
i don't plan to do anything more and i knew the full stop really meant a full stop.
no more dragging mud taking water (direct translation of a chinese idiom)
just sometimes, i give myself false hopes..
i blame myself that the relationship blew off
i get all sentimental because i thought of him
and
i don't like me to being a dingbat =_=
worse still, im the lone ranger,the dumbo whom held these one-sided emotions.
wtfish right ?!

honestly, i think it's a poison in me already.
it's kinda hard to cure..
so : don't care lah.sentimental then sentimental lor.whatever la.stupid then stupid la.
as long as i gauranteed my common senses is not malfunctioning..and i won't do anything reckless.
im COOL okay ? *cough cough*

:D but imma livin my life.so far so good.just this particular part of me and my half-ass-studies sucks =_=

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lastly :D
went pyramid with elaine last sunday.
had a really good time with her.lazy to upload photos/brag about it.
girl friends rocks =)
tommorow go college again...to start and finish up the english group oral presentation..
so must say HI to my dear ktm lor. yaaaaaay.

byebye lar people. li xin is damn lame right now.
she looked lame.
she felt lame.
she sounds lame.

then she thought of lamb.
baaaaaa

si beh lame/lamb.

-xin